There are times I will admit that I feel very alone here on earth even though I know that I am not, I have lots of people tell me I can call and talk to them but that is just not me. I figure everyone has enough without hearing my problems. So I turn to the One I always know is there for me, GOD!! Know matter that time of day or what the issue I can talk to him. I know if my parents were still here I could talk to them and as other family members there is so much sickness I just hate to burden anyone with my stuff!!
The last couple of months though have been very difficult, more difficult in some ways than when I was first diagnosed. Basically because now they keep changing what they think is wrong they just can't pinpoint exactly what it is. And I have to be honest the longer it goes and the more that comes out the less likely I am liking any diagnosis. But I will fight no matter what it is, I have to for my family until I just can't anymore.
I am sure some are wandering about new problems, I have a whole new onset of symptoms, right sided paralysis in my face and arm, body jerking and twitching, horrible debilitating headaches. All seem to lead to a few possible things they are thinking seizures. But it is possible other things, my blood counts have gone crazy again too and my blood is way to thin my PTT level was 200 not suppose to be greater than 20 so just not sure.
Just felt like I needed to say all this I hope this hope some understand my situation a little better. I love all my family and friends and I am greatly blessed to have each and everyone of you in my life!! GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!
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